pretty much exhausted. The chinta's are not doing ok. it seems that everyone around me are tearing up. daym. and here i am, looking at each one of them, feeling miserable and guilty. tsk!reasons? i felt that im not doing a good job. all i can give them is advises and my listening ear.

and yes. easy said, not easy done. i know that. been there done that. you wont know how it feels. that how i feel too when it comes to my own problem. the soothing words work for a momento. after that? back to square one. i made all the Chinta's to vent everything out. that's the only medicine to it. like seriously.

a sudden flash back to 2 years ago incident. and for once, like finally, im proud that i made it finally. what fad done.. to cause me to be like this.. really makes me strong. just that.. i wasnt ready to fall into that serious relationship again. i am too afraid to go into that kind of thing again. it took me 2 freaking years to stand back on my feet. Chinta's, you feel me?

and when someone said that i am being selfish to the people around me by not letting them know about me more. i get pretty annoyed or should i say aggressive? hah. why must i do that in the 1st place? if you really want it. work for it. im not that kind of girl who will automatically blurt out everything about me. or easy said. im the listener. not the talker. geddit. like what chinta's always described me. aqilah munirah likes to keep things to herself. and very hard to understand her needs and wants. and frankly, i myself dont understand me. ape ckap?

aaa.. now i feel much better. blogging helps alot. and chinta's, im always here. be strong please, for me. i failed in my love life but that doesnt mean all of you have to join me in my singlehood. hahah! make me proud. continue your love journey for me. okay? XOXO to all of you.

before i end this. a BIG SHOUTOUT TO THA DUDEE, LUFTI HAZIM. HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY BROTHAAAAAA~ welcome to the big 2-0 club. and yes i know, i owe u a treat. tunggu uh dok. soon k. malam nie jugak wa bakar kan lu punya kereta LEXUS uh. amaciamzz??? ahaha! have a blissful birthday dude. XOXO