happiness comes when you least expected it. it comes without you realising it. just like how it happened to me. i remember, around 2 weeks ago. i was so emotional about things that happened. my brain died on me. all i was thinking was "why". and i figured it out as usual.

and then something tells me that.. i have to stop all this. like really stop. cause Ive been wasting it to something which is not worth it at all. dwelling on something which is already gone. i wished i could drilled that in my head but this is me. i wont wake up if i didn't slapped my own face. like you know, wake up qiqi. wake up. reality need you back. and i realised. I'm the one who hurt myself all this while by dwelling. revenge is sweet but no, i don't want to revenge.

So, I've learnt to let it go. still learning though. aint easy. but I'm trying. forgive but will never forget. =) and the outcome? fabulous! i remember when ibu told me during my kiddo days. "god is always fair. he will reward good people who does good things". yes mom. he did. =)

only sheila and i know what is that reward i get. not even a billion of dollars can make me smile like this. alhamdulilah. and pyja, thank you. love you big sister~ and i don't mind you nagging at me or scolding me everyday at work. cause I'm used to it aye? =))

Saturday was spent with new friends. since chinta's and sheila was occupied with their own stuff. went out with ehin, yat and his gf. it was so not me to msged ehin out of blue and goes.. "ehin,sat free? jom keluar. qiqi nak watch new moon." and there it goes.. adam rd for late dinner. and ice cream at cold rock to end the day with. and no, i am not dating with ehin. just friends. and im his bahan kacau. kacau ehin kacau.. nanti qiqi mara jadi mcm si wolf tu baru tahu. ahahaha!

i miss sheila and chinta's pretty much. will be meeting them again on wed. for adeq's surprise dinner. but too bad kechiq cant be there. or else. it'll be the full force yaw. its okay. Christmas ade kek~ sheila, lets have dinner together soon. since kau busy for this 3 weeks straight during weekends.

for now, all i can say. I'm happy with the way things are now. please stay this way. i cant wait for 2010. brand new year. enough with the pain i had. hang on qiqi. hang on. 3 more weeks to go.. and you'll open a new book. a new chapter. =) i don't have to be in love to be happy. cause the people who cares the most can give me more than a BF could give me. CONTENTED. good night. xoxo