i hate the fucking facts that... i miss him. fucking miss him. seeing him online be it in FB or msn just triggers me pretty much to just prompt him - like i always do after getting mad at each other and not on talking terms for so long. and its always ME, who break the ice 1st. i cant bring myself to forgive him either. its like... i hate you but i love you too at the same time. you know. urrggh!
things are going fine btween wolfy and i. and i think someone merajuk with me? ahah! because i asked him he miss his ex huh? suka tak merajuk? and wolfy, you STARTED it 1st okay. so dont blame me for saying that. who light up the fire 1st? merajuk2 layan diri sendiri k. i lazy nak entertain. apparently he "tunjuk perasaan" la.. by not replying me back. hahah! we'll see till when ok... hmmpf!
a heart to heart talk with the dudee, kiki, was indeed heart opening. more like a brother giving advice. thank you soo much. but kiki, as far as im concerned. i'll stick to my safety bubble. it feels comfortable being n here. without worrying about being cheated, fooled or heartbroken by a man. i ALMOST pop that bubble and put my ego aside, but.. - wrong move. wrong person. baaah.
time for my pebbles naptime. im just not being myself nowdays hence that explain this short deep post. its like tunggang terbalik right? i know. thats how i feel now. what ive been thinking lately. give me some time. i'll be on my normal self soon. no worries baby. aqilah munirah loves all of you ok. mwahs!
