heart to heart talk with mum is always the best medicine. mum always know if something is not right. and indeed. i was being questioned by her as soon as i reached home just now. and this is what she said.. "you'll tend to be blind when you love someone and i dont blame you for that. a lesson to learnt aqilah munirah. once he asked from you something, he will ask from you again and again. same theory as.. if a guy beats you once. he will beat you twice and that continues. naik sedap la orang cakap. ignore those comments he gave you. the game is over. he lose. that explained those remarks. and you, stand back on your feet. insyallah doa ibu untuk anak2 ibu akan dimakbulkan. i always pray the best for my daughters. and im proud of you...." it ended with a long tight hug and a kiss at the forehead. wait - when was the last time ibu did that to me? sungguh lama ok. i mean kiss at the forehead. usually its the cheeks. hehe. i love you mum. thank you.

well said. im ok now. i feel much more calmer now. at times, in diff situation. you have to go the meaner and rude way to end things up with humans from your past. ive never asked for it. you just dont learnt your lesson. goodbye now. dont ever come back, please. dah ludah, jangan jilat balik.

you know, i cant help thanking god for what i have now. HE didnt give me a perfect BF, but HE gives me a bunchful of loving caring people around me. My Family, My Best Lady - Sheila, My Chinta's,My Babygirl's - Naddy, Nelly, Susu and lastly.. My boys... Super contented. =)

and sheila's fav sentence to me.. "Chins up baby. teh, i know you can pull thru this. macam mana kau terduduk pon.. ah tam kau sentiase pat sisi kau. jangan takot. aku pat sini..." auuuww la please. word classic siaaa tam.. "sisi kau.." aahah. aku sayang kau banyak2 siti fazilah. thank you.

For now,im pretty occupied with the girls and bestie.. work wise - pretty slack for now. but next month, i'll be busy back again - typing reports.. tu part apa laagiiii.. OT dokk... buat duit2 banyak2. heheheheh! this sunday will be having steamboat over at Pyja's house with the Chinta's. and tell me about it - i am soo sexcited.

dinner with my two usual chinta's last night was awesome. Pyja, Fyza & emy. kite kalau duduk lepak bobual2... mesti berjam2. and the topic can continue on and on... i suka ok. terkekek2 la kan. with fyza and emy nyer karenah. bodoh pegi. bodoh balik. but its cute ok to see them argue like that. and kamu berdua.. i know you both are having a stressful time right know. dont worry, we are all here to help you in any kind of way. dont worry ok. satu happy - semua happy, satu susah - semua rasa susah. thats what i called true friends. i cant wait for the verdict to come out, praying hard everythings gonna be fine. =)

and the guys that ive been contacting? well... i erased them bit by bit. hahah. nothing new aye? ive said before... those who are really keen to really know you. they will stay there no matter what. and im keeping those that are "sincere".. yang lain2.malas la kek.. guys la kan. what you expect. dah immune pong. LOL.

ok. gotta go. tam, wa sayang sama lu. =D k aku tahu random. tapi aku suka. aku sayang kau taaaaaaaaaaauuuuuu ah tam. banyaks2 uh sey. k bubye!!!

p/s: those post been deleted for good. im ok now. just for once, dont ever come back. ok? nanti kau tgk motor kau pat mana. atas paragon aku letak. nak?! *chedebah. MP aje aku. tuui~ LOL*