olla!!! im back for an update. actually, i "curik tulang" la.. cause im fucking sleepy and im done typing my reports. and there's no patients. sumpah time passby soo seeeeeeeeeeelllooooow kay. hmmpf!
JB trip was boring as predicted. but cik lan's nasi ayam was soup-perbs gile okays. reached home at 9pm on friday night. saturday was spent with jacob(wolfy). something happen while we were queue-ing up for the tickets. the queue was supeeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrr long i tell you. and someone was not helping either with that "angry look". tk perlu ok. like as if it was my fault queue panjang nak mampos. and i feel soo irritated when he keeps on saying "ive never queue this long before..." neither do i jacob. just shut up. nak tengok then diam. easy. pfffhht!
had dinner at Muhfiz while waiting for the movie - Clash of the titans. after eating baru someone's mode back to normal. -.- Clash of the titans was awesome okay. no kidding. Up next is Rec2. sungguh tk sabar kays. anyone? wanna watch with me. No, im not going to ask jacob again. cause enough is enough. im starting to have doubts with him. with everything. so yea. sua malass woooooo.. actually i felt better after the movie la. cause he was back to the old wolfy. i spend the whole night of saturday till the wee hours of sunday with him. but the moment we reach home and woke up.. he's back to that ignorant person. fucking cheeeebyyeee i tell you. thats where i had some reflection time. do i really want to be like this? he reminds me of Ogy sumhow. ahahaha! perangai sundals habis ok. tsk! so, ive stop looking up for him. i let jacob find me himself rather then me giving him random text msg like always. doesnt pay good to be nice at all. soo yea, going with tha flow baby. its just the matter of time where i would just shut up and stop replying or talking to you. like i always do. whats new? i always have this rotten luck with those boys who im "seeing". hahah. but s'okay. dont worry. im cool. =)
Fallen in and out of love is a normal thing. whenever it happens to you, dont ever shed a tears for this type of asshole. they aint worth it. be proud, cause in the end, you dont lose anything. =) and one thing. you know why i dont bother to fix things up btween me and jacob? this is what life and experience taught me..
"TRUST YOUR INSTINCTS. DONT BE A "PEOPLE PLEASER"
okay babies? keep that in mind. i admit, letting go is hard but once i had enough. i'll walk away. like i always do. its just that the things that he do keeps me going back and forth. god is fair. god will lead me the way. thats what i believe. =) i still do heart you jacob. but i had enough too. how? we'll see hor.
its been awhile since i meet my bestie, my chinta's and my babygirl. i miss all of you okay!!! the girls are having problems too, sae goes for the bestie. definetly not a good month for us. be strong okay all of you. chins up baby. we all will pull thru this. mwahsss!!!
ok deh. gotta go. toodles!!!
