my eyes been twitching for the past few days. and i was on by standby mode to expect the worst. i THOUGHT this gotta do with work since every year w/o fail. somewhere, somehow, something about my report always cock-up. and there i go.. breakdown moments. bt this time. i was WRONG. its the girls. Chinta's Inc.
one word -misunderstanding. seriously, i wish i could scream out loud. im done with all this. but i cant bear to leave or do so. why? i love my girls soo much. just like how i love sheila baby. i cant bear to go and leave all of them in misery. sometime i asked myself, why i bother to do all this? when i have another option. like seriously. i can go crazy k.
i broke down like totally broke down just now. till i woke mum up kay. didnt really told her what happened. i lied by saying that my head is giving me a massive throbbing pain. bt mother's. they know their kids very well. and so, i let it out. and she gave me a big big hug and a huge encouragement. thanks momma!! ure the best. i love you!!!
therefore, i vowed that, no matter how hard the situation is. how difficult to calmed everyone down. i shall no give up. cause we all are like a pillar. if one's damaged. all will be affected and thumble down too. =) girls, just so you know, i am trying my best to keep all of u safe and happy okay. its like T.O.T.A - go figure.
just so you know, i love all of u equally the same. tkde yang lebih. except for sheila la kan. sheila's more up. despite at times we dont really agree on each other. still, thats my bestie. and the one who will always be there when everyone turn their back on me. =) aku sayang kau lebih ok tam. i know ive been soo quiet lately. rest assured - im still ur small girl. =) i dont ask anything in return la. but please girls, the advices given to everyone of you, please please tkmo mcm masuk telinga kanan, keluar telinga kiri. drill that in ur brain. selagi i masih hidup, i dont mind la repeating this again and again although at time aku macam nak jerit jer pat korg. but still, im not like that. but if one day im not here anymore, u all have to learn to be independant without me. talk and listen to both party first and DONT jump into conclusion. thats when all the complications starts. and when one is trying to explained or talk. ALL listen. DONT interrupt. and dont be defensive. okay?
gtg now. i need to settle some things with wolfy too.. haiyak fucked my life la. too many things been bothering me at one shot. besok keje lagi. cheebye. type report lagi. mati sudah! k bye. sheila. meet up soon. i need a BFF time. aku miss kau sgt2. forgive me for this emo post. alah qiqi nothing new kay. kau slalu emo. HAHAHAHAH! k bye
